Hi!
Long time no blog!
I've been deciding how to go about typing this little gem out.
I suppose since this blog is to document our baby makin' journey I should just be honest and put it out there.
As I said in the last post I was not too excited or hopeful for the 3rd round of Clomid.
I pretty much wrote it off.
Take the pills - wait for the negative - get our baby wanting butts to a fertility specialist.
Easy, right?!
Well my friends, the week of June 24th this girl got her first ever BIG FAT POSITIVE!
Shut up?! Really!
No way.
But, yes. Digitally legit pregnant.
(I want to add there may be some truth to the whole don't worry or stress and you will get pregnant) (most annoying bit of advice ever by the way)
The week we got pregnant we were packing and getting excited about a weekend away with friends, signed on building our dream house etc. My mind was the farthest away from mini Stell and the 3rd round of Clomid so we had a week of letting lose. Remember I just knew the 3rd round wasn't going to be successful anyway. Crazy how that works....
I mean can you believe it?!
Our 3rd round of Clomid worked!
We instantly fell in love with our little poppy seed. James was on cloud 9. I was quietly doubtful.
Ok absolutely terrified is more like it.
So many of my friends have miscarried their first pregnancies and I just wasn't feeling how I thought being pregnant should feel.
I scoured the internet. I pestered my closest friends. Questions day and night.
Why am I cramping so much?
Why am I not feeling sick?
Where are my symptoms?
As we counted down the weeks to our first appointment I started feeling better and better. Excitement was creeping in. No! I couldn't get excited.. I wasn't going to let myself be vulnerable. I kept telling myself that daily along with prayers to God asking begging pleading for Him to take care of our sweet baby.
Around 3 AM July 14 I woke up to extreme cramps and massive bleeding.
While I've never been pregnant I knew what was happening.
I ran to the bathroom and cried more than I have in ummmm 10 years? I cried. I prayed. I accepted.
We lost our first sweet baby.
No, mini Stell wasn't even 8 weeks old at that point BUT that little one was what we had been hoping, praying, and waiting for. That little blip on the screen already had our hearts.
You would think I would be mad. You would think I would be so angry that God hadn't protected our mini miracle.
No, I am thankful. I am joyful that God has shown us that we CAN get pregnant!
We grieved. We cried. We talked and talked. This just wasn't our time. We will have our time.
Our sweet baby is in Heaven. Who could stay upset for long about that.
I feel that I need to approach our next pregnancy in a different manner.
I basically lived in fear for a month. Every twinge sent me to the internet. Every morning without nausea made me doubt.
I didn't get to enjoy the idea of the miracle that was happening!
I totally cheated myself.
SO next time. No fear. Just confidence in my body and my God.
I will enjoy every second and know that God is a comforting God. He is a healing God. God wants us to be parents eventually in some way, shape, or form.
I have been truly blessed by our first baby. This baby gave me confidence in myself, my husband, our marriage, and especially and most importantly our God.
We can get pregnant!
Such a huge thing. An amazing thing!
I'm going to wrap this up so I can go hug my sweet husband.
So round 3 of Clomid. Successful.
Something just wasn't exactly right.
Moving forward my doctor wants to try 3 more rounds starting in September. She is going to add progesterone right away even before we get a positive result just to make sure there are sufficient levels - if a pregnancy results in another miscarriage she will refer me to the specialist.
Having this plan is a huge comfort to me.
I adore my doctor.
She hugged me. She talked to me and made sure I knew it was ok to grieve.
A pregnancy is a pregnancy. No matter if it's 2 weeks or full term.
I love her even more for taking the time to share her infertility story.
So yeah, even more convinced we have the best doctor ever ;)
So. Yeah. That's what we've been doing!
Next post?
Hopefully I think of something to write about before September BUT looking at my track record don't get too excited ;)
Maybe about our house we are building? Maybe about how awesome my dog is?
LOL! who knows...
XO
Lauren
I gained weight on clomid over 3 months and my ovaries were overstimulated...i have not lost it and starting injectables next week..it seems some weight gain is part of this process..
ReplyDeleteJennifer, I've noticed some weight gain but I honestly think it is due to laziness on my part. I have read a few blogs/boards that do say to expect weight gain. Ugh! Like we don't have enough to deal with! I've been getting back into the gym and starting some running back up - this time I want to know I've done all that I can! Good luck with your journey! The injectables will be our next step - am I'm not too thrilled!
DeleteWHAT IS CLOMID?
ReplyDeleteAs per the data given by Center for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC), there are 6.7 million women in US, aged between 15-44 sufferings from impaired fecundity. Impaired fecundity is an impaired ability to get pregnant or carry a baby to term. Out of these nearly about 1.5 million married women are unable to become pregnant after at least 12 consecutive months of unprotected sex with partner. One of the major causes for this is anovulation. Anovulation is a condition of absent ovulation or lack of ovulation in women or in other words when the ovary does not release a ripened egg during menstrual cycle every month. To achieve a pregnancy, release of egg from the ovary must happen during a woman’s reproductive years. Generic Clomiphene citrate or its brand Clomid is the front runner in the treatment of normally oestrogenized, anovulatory women. When a woman, suffering with anovulation, takes Clomid or generic Clomiphene citrate, this medicine reduces the estrogen receptors at hypothalamus, this result in stimulating pituitary to release follicle stimulating hormons (FSH) much in the same manner as Gonadotropin releasing Harmon (GnRH) does. Many medical reports suggest that 50% patients ovulated after taking Clomid, and 30 % are enjoying the pleasure of parenthood. Before any women buy clomid for the treatment of infertility caused due to anovulation, she must note that weight reduction is an important part of this therapy, as body mass index is very closely associated with negative response to Clomid. One must avoid any other ovulation induction therapy along with Clomid as; this may result into multiple follicular developments, increasing the chances of ovarian hyperstimulation and multiple pregnancies. Taking account of many observation, Meds247Online recommends to all women suffering from anovulatory infertility, should continue the treatment with clomid for at least 6 cycles before considering any other invasive or complex treatment.
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Clomid acts on the hypothalamus, pituitary gland and ovary to increase FSH levels and thus completing the infertility therapy in women suffering from absent ovulation, very low level of estrogen, or high level of FSH or with polycystic ovary syndrome. Meds247Online advices to all the woman’s and their partner to undergo pre-treatment evaluation to make sure the Clomid is the best treatment for them.
How to start the dose of Clomid: -
It is very important to know how to start and when to start the dose of Clomid for successful treatment of infertility. To get the best result from clomid, it is advised to start the your dose of Clomiphene 50mg on third, fourth or fifth day of your menstrual cycle, taking one pill of 50mg every 24 hours for five day. To calculate the day’s one can take first day of menstrual bleeding as day one. Some healthcare providers recommend single course of progestin medicine like Provera to push a menstrual cycle, if the women does not have regular period. But recent developments in the treatment of infertility with clomid suggest that the pregnancy rate is higher without inducing bleeding with medroxyprogesterone like Provera.
During a cycle of 28 days, the ovulation occurs between 14 to 19 days of the cycle. To optimize the chances of getting pregnant with clomid, one must use ovulation predictor kit (OPK) to plan intercourse. The ovulation predictor kit uses the urine sample to predict ovulation by measuring the luteinizing hormone level. The first day of luteinizing hormone surge between midnight to 8 am and the following day are the best time to plan intercourse. This means, checking the ovulation in the morning hour using OPK may miss day one of LH surge. This is advisable to check the OPK in the afternoon might be better to onset the LH surge.
Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteClomifene citrate belongs to the family of drugs called ovulatory agents. Read more pillsfind.com/clomifene-citrate
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