Second round of Clomid!

So we are done with round two Clomid!

This round was KILLER.

I was an absolute mess. Emotionally, physically - and well any kind of "ally" someone can be.

It really made me question if  I could do it all over again. My face was so broken out it literally hurt to wash, touch, smile. I mean - adult acne is being nice. This was out of control! Even my facialist was stumped.
For some reason this round really got to me emotionally. I would have REALLY low lows then remember the big wonderful picture and have a really awesome burst of "We can do this"....the medicine is working and that is all that matters.

Then the craziest thing happened as if I hadn't had enough ups and downs....

My period didn't start.
Now remember I hadn't up until the first Clomid round had a normal on time cycle. Remember how exciting that was?!
So I was fully expecting to start right on time last Sunday. Is it sad I am already so used to negative pregnancy tests that's not even what I wait for?! Lol! Totally was waiting for my period. I'm a freak.

Sunday came and went. No period, slight cramping, but other than that nothing. Not one thing.
Mon, Tue, and Wed came and went as well.
Along with about $100 worth of pregnancy tests which I'm sure you have guessed by now were all Big Fat Negatives!
What the hell was going on with me?
Why was my period off again?
Why can't my body just get it's shiz together?!

Secretly hoping (bc everyone who blogs about miracle pregnancies says their test didn't show a positive for weeks and weeks) that maybe our mini Stell just didn't want to show himself at that time. How can you not get excited? How can you keep yourself from getting totally let down? How can you stop praying to see even a twinge of blood but then praying just as hard you don't?
Conflicted my people. Con to the flicted.

Around Thursday I did finally see a hint of something but it was a light brown color. Sorry TMI, but you are going to read far worse by the end of the journey I imagine ;)

So I did what I know best. Called my Dr. She said that she wouldn't recommend starting Round 3 until I was absolutely sure my period was starting. Me thinking the whole time ummmm like another year from now? Yes, negative creeping in...it happens. She said she was sure it was just my period trying to start and with each round your period gets a little later. WHAT?! You are giving me something that will make me even more weird. She's lucky I like her.

Went to the pharmacy and filled the Clomid just in case something happened - along with another $30 spent on a pregnancy test. Ya know, just because. I mean why not?

Saturday I had the most terrible headache in the WORLD. Well not quite migraine but pretty dang horrible.
Then Sunday - my life went back in the direction I am getting pretty comfortable with! I started! Praise my wonderful Jesus!
My body was working - it was doing what it could to deliver.
Even though my cramps were off the charts I totally didn't care. Cramp on!

So with that being said Round Three starts tomorrow. This is the last round my Dr. will give me before referring me to a fertility specialist. Is it rotten that I just want to skip that nonsense and go straight up the chain. A wasted month to me just doesn't sound fun BUT let's just see for the hell of it what kind of WONDERFUL ailments I encounter this round. So excited :/

This is what my friend wrapped Clomid cycles up as:
1st: Feeling good, no symptoms, excited, hopeful.
2nd: Tired, apprehensive, super overly emotional and hormonal.
3rd: Absolute bitch mode.

Everyone say a prayer for my sweet husband.
June might rock his world. Sigh....

Nobody will ever be able to say we didn't want our awesome mini Stell. We know God will give us our little one in His time - I just have to keep faith that I can handle the steps it will take to get there!

Yep, so that's about it!
Clomid is quickly becoming not so cool ;)

Happy Summer people!

Love,
Me